I have felt the way you feel and also mistreated by neurologist. I found this resource on the epilepsy foundation on impact of mood and I called them to see if its available in my state it's free. Project Uplift

Everyone is unique in this regard. I’ve dealt with these symptoms to a
significant but not severe degree since 1969.

Sounds like side effects from your medication. Have you asked your doctor?

Oxcarbazepine and lamotrogine

Are you on keppra? Check the side effects of your medications.