I have God's grace and the ocean and beach plus Bob Marley today is the second anniversary of my wife's passing away I'm sitting on the beach looking at the ocean listening to Jimmy Buffett drinking her favorite drink a hurricane with a friend that I've known since fifth grade. I am not sure if that is appropriate to say but it's the truth.

Oh Sean! What an ordeal you have experienced! I hope this finds you slowly but surely mending your body.
Who do you have in your life that can offer the emotional support you need as you heal?

I recently had a seizure in the shower broke my back and fractured my skull they are very limited on pain meds due to my epilepsy I've had three back surgeries and one more on the way I live in pain. I'm getting the feeling they don't care

According to Mayo Clinic seizures are only likely with an overdose of Methadone. Additionally I have never seen so many drug interaction warnings!
Talk to your neurologist

It depends on what else you may be taking with your seizure meds. There might be a conflict.
https://www.drugs.com/methadone.html
https://www.drugs.com/meloxicam.html
https://www.drugs.com/flexeril.html