Ever since I got sick and got diagnosed with epilepsy, I've become a neat freak and a perfectionist. My handwriting is what I obsess over the most. I am incredibly picky when it comes to my handwriting and worry and stress over it much more than I should. For some reason, when I write a word, sentence or letter and don't like how it looks, I feel the need to erase it and rewrite it. I don't know why. In my head I tell myself it looks fine, but it's like my hands won't listen. I take so much time… read more
Hi Mei,
I wish I were a bit more of a perfectionist! Nonetheless, if your focus is causing you to take so much longer to do your homework or anything else requiring handwriting, it probably is just a sign of your wanting to have complete control over something, having lost it in such a profound way because of your epilepsy. Also, handwriting has to do with your motor skills, which can cause you to draw a parallel with the body movements that go out of whack during a seizure. It all makes so much sense.
Is there something that really would benefit from perfectionism and also requires motor skills to which you could redirect your focus? A sport, calligraphy (being so close to handwriting, it could be a good one to try!), painting, needlework, pastry baking, something? Just a thought.
BTW, I saw that you mentioned that you "became epileptic." Remember: You are not epileptic; you have epilepsy. It is a major challenge we have, but it doesn't define us, as much as we may feel it does at times. :-)
Keep your spirits soaring!
Alison
No, but I try, I am well organized and try to do whatever I am doing to the best of my ability, I don't have a prob with a little failure either, that is how I learn if I do, my opinion
Hi Mel,
My writing, memory and attention are getting worse.
I've quit electrictians job.
Keep a routine,
Stay safe
I've been a perfectionist since I was very little, but the again I've had Epilepsy since I was 3. I'm now almost 62.
Remember Epilepsy isn't a sickness
but yeah perfectionist I am I don't give up until I've done what I set out to do and make sure I've done it well