I use to take naps, read, or draw to keep my mind off grief or stress. It takes time but seeing a counselor will help if you find the right one. Huge hugs hon. I’m here too if you need a friend.

I value each of your thoughts. Know that I’m not alone on the rocking boat called epilepsy is comforting. Thank each of you. I’m also grateful to have a wonderful therapist.

You've been receiving a great deal of loving, gentle kindness here, Carol. Unfortunately, death is very personal , especially when that of a dearly-loved one. One thing I've learned is to not only accept grief - but make sure you allow yourself to feel it. Grief is real and something you must endure. But it will end - but not your love for the departed love. All of this requires an inner strength that only you can amass. In so doing this, don't be afraid to call on family, friends, your faith, and this group for help. Right now you don't need advice for none of us can fully appreciate the pain and agony you're experiencing. Depend on that inner strength that is somewhere in you.

I wish I could empathize. It must be awful what you’re going through. I hope you allow yourself the time and space to work through all stages of grief. I hope that you’re eventually able to find another partner. You’ve come to the right place for support 🧡🙏🏼💪🏼🙂

Carol7, please accept my heartfelt condolences. I believe Mr RalphPace’s sincere advice is well said. Please know you have the support of all of your friends here, and all family and friends around you. But ultimately, we have to do our own grieving. It does take an inner strength, a willingness to accept both the loss and the grieving process, and also an awareness that our loved one is with us, encouraging us to do so.

As if I were talking to an old friend, I would recommend letting yourself grieve now. I lost my mother in March, and was too afraid of my reality to grieve at the time. I am still trying to initiate that grieving process; whereas the tears were at the ready back in March, and I pushed them down to the depths in my mind, now I am trying to resurrect and experience those emotions, so I can move on. Again, I am so sorry for your loss, and wish you only an awareness that he is with you always.